Over studying

I never felt like I truly applied myself at Baylor. I went to class, took notes, hardly ever read, and still made A's. Now I'm in law school, spending 12 hours in the library everyday, carrying about 35 lbs on my back, and trying to control my jitters I've acquired from my dear friends NoDoze and Red Bull.

To prepare for my property exam yesterday, I spent a month merging my outline, class notes, and others outlines. Then I worked through the Primer twice (a property workbook that is supposed to dumb down life estates for us...yeah...don't ask) and worked through several supplements/interactive CD-ROMS that were recommended by 2Ls and 3Ls. I spent so much time studying just to end up feeling like a complete failure at the end of the three hour exam. Go me.

As I study for my constitutional law test that I have TOMORROW, I'm starting to wonder: how much can my body take? I've been sick several times this semester, don't get enough sleep, and don't care about my hair anymore. I'm sure it's all due to stress. I was worried about dying from a caffeine overdose but a site we found online said it would take 94 NoDoze pills to kill me...but can studying kill me? Studying too much seems to be the root of all my problems these days - my frizzy hair, my awkward teen-like breakouts on my chin, my acid reflux, my lack of sleep...AM I GOING TO DIE FROM THIS?

A few friends of mine found a post online about a guy who died from overstudying constitutional law and had a panic attack mid-test. Not gonna lie, I wanted to start crying yesterday while figuring out who had a valid future interest in Blackacre and Whiteacre during the exam, but I managed to stay strong. Click here to read the article about the horrific conlaw death.

All of this law school stress does have its perks though. My parents feel really bad for me and are taking me shopping for work clothes this summer. Every law clerk should look fabulous so I'm on the hunt for the perfect black leather Kate Spade shoulder bag and a tote to carry my computer and portfolio. I never thought I would be this excited to shop for grown up clothes, conservative heels, and working 9-5 and sitting in traffic afterward. This summer is going to be such a relief from school!

Back to studying. The 7 Rules of Justiciability are calling my name.